I’m also really tired and I’m missing a lecture today to get my food because no one is reliable enough to fit in my flat for 20 minutes. It’s all really hard and overwhelming all the work I have, which isn’t even that much work, its just the content of it blows my mind. Its all based around science and the brain and cancers and health statistics, which is nothing that I expected from picking these modules. So hopefully by Monday, after a good spring clean, my sugars all not fucked up and starting to settle I should be feeling better about the whole thing.. HOPEFULLY.
I’m also kind of annoyed from yesterdays shenanigans which I won’t divulge into but I don’t think I can be a friend to someone who doesn’t look after themselves, not even psychically, I mean mentally; its starting to become draining being someones friend who constantly blames bad habits such as drugs, drinking all the time yet having zero money on their parents or ‘being young.’ I don’t have enough emotional time to spend trying to help someone that refuses to see that they are the problem. Its like if I were to blame myself putting on weight on tescos for not delivering on a Friday at 1:45pm exactly, its ludicrous. Also I can’t really relate because I don’t see the appeal in getting wasted every night and being out of control of my future. I don’t understand how someone wouldn’t want to be the best version of themselves properly but rather finds solace in wasting everyday to sleep rather than bettering themselves. I’m just really torn at this moment in time because I know what it’s like to feel lost and out of control but I manage to snap myself back into reality without throwing myself under the bus first. I just hope that they begin to realise the opportunities they’re throwing away to indulge themselves constantly. Sooner and hopefully not later.

Peace love and tie dye. xoxo